Trying Again: A Journey of Love

Creating a family isn't always easy. We had years of unexplained infertility, went through fertility treatments, had a beautiful daughter, conceived naturally, had an early miscarriage, conceived naturally again, had a second trimester miscarriage, conceived naturally again only to lose the baby at 9 weeks. We moved on to fertility treatments again and got pregnant but miscarried due to a blighted ovum. Pregnant again with fertility treatments and blessed with our rainbow baby boy in May 2012.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Testing and Anxiety

The anxiety never stops, at least not at this point. I keep taking tests and the lines keep getting darker! Yay! I still get nervous each time I take one. Here is tonight's:

Today I had my first beta blood draw at my OB's office. I will get the results in a day or two. Then I'll go back and do it again in a week to see how everything is progressing. We'll also do an early ultrasound at 6 or 7 weeks to look for a heart beat.

I felt good at my appointment today, mostly excited, a little nervous, and a little sad. I brought in my son's Certificate of Life to be signed by my OB and her medical assistant. Everyone in the office was really supportive and happy to see me back. They all thought the certificate was beautiful. I felt like my son was with me today, especially, as I saw a butterfly flit past the front door as I was headed in for my appointment. I have seen more butterflies this year than ever, and it is such a warm, happy feeling when I do.

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A Short Summary

Had our first daughter in 2008 after 8 years TTC. Clomid/HCG Trigger shot/IUI. Diagnosis: Irregular ovulation, possible PCOS.
Got pregnant and lost the baby in January 2010, no fertility treatment. Ended quickly as a chemical pregnancy.
Got pregnant the following cycle, in March 2010, no fertility treatment. All seemed to be going well until we got a 1 in 10 chance for Down syndrome with the quad screen. At an ultrasound at 17 weeks, we found out our son had died in utero. We lost him in July 2010, most likely due to confirmed Down syndrome.
Got pregnant again without fertility treatment in September 2010. Things were going well, great betas, strong heartbeat. Then at 9week5days we found out we lost that baby too. After testing, it was confirmed she was a girl with Turners syndrome.
Lots of testing revealed I have PAI-1 4G/4G with normal levels, a blood clotting disorder. Alone it shouldn't cause any problems, but paired with another blood clotting disorder it could be a problem.
Back to my RE and started Clomid, I got pregnant right away in February 2011. Things didn't look good from the beginning, and in April at around 10 weeks I needed a D&C for a blighted ovum.
We got pregnant again on Clomid/HCG Trigger shot, and added our beautiful son to our family in May 2012.