Mix of Emotions

One week. One week away from our son's due date. We bought a Fur Real polar bear to donate to Toys For Tots in his honor. My husband and I graduated from the same college, and the polar bear is the mascot. When we had our little girl, my husband's gift to her on the day she was born was a stuffed polar bear. He had also bought one for our son, which sits in a chair in the supposed-to-be nursery. We will be with family this weekend, that will help keep us busy.

Yesterday we had blood work done for a multitude of things. 2 trips to the lab, 3 hours, 6 sticks (5 of those in my hands), and 5 viles of blood later (plus 2 sticks and 4 viles for DH), and I think they have what they need, at least for this round of blood work. I have tricky veins. It's the weirdest thing. They used this really cool infrared light thing on me yesterday so they could see my veins through my skin. I've been told for years that my veins are tiny and that they roll. One nurse even told me that she literally saw my vein do a zigzag when she put in the needle. Sometimes when they get the needle in the vein, it still refuses to give them blood (or enough blood, depending on it's temperament). With this infrared thing, the women at the lab were pushing on my vein with a finger and we all were watching my veins do the zigzag. It was strange and cool all at the same time. It also tells me that I will always have trouble giving blood, ugh! I felt a little bit like a guinea pig, but at least everyone stayed in good spirits. They were even sweet enough to give me a gift card to the hospital gift shop afterwards. So now I'm bruised, but I have lots of candy! We got tested for genetic/chromosomes and a general blood panel work up. I also got my thyroid tested and got a lupus panel. I'm not sure when we will have results back, but I'm very curious to see how they turn out.

In other news: I'm ovulating. We weren't "supposed" to start TTC again yet, but it just sort of happened. I was waiting until I was sure the bleeding from my miscarriage had stopped before we BD'd again. Once I was sure that had happened (a few days ago), we did the deed. I had taken an OPK that night right before and it was negative. The next day it was pretty close to positive. After some discussions and encouragement from my online girlfriends, we decided we might as well fit another BD in last night because I'd already potentially get pregnant anyway, so why not give it a better chance. Today my OPK is blazing.

I had some pains in my ovary last night, and all other signs are pointing toward ovulation. Honestly, I think I will be okay whichever way it goes this month. It would be a wonderful Christmas gift though - to finally get pregnant with our healthy "take home" baby. I should know by my daughter's 2nd birthday on the 22nd. I'm not sure how to handle the mix of emotions of being and the two week wait and having my son's due date all at the same time, but it is what it is.