Anxiety

I hate having anxiety. Since Sunday I have been obsessing over my pee sticks. The test lines are as dark as the control lines, so I should be happy, right!? Well, for 3 days they have been the same, and I know the test line is supposed to get darker than the control line eventually. I'm just afraid it's not happening fast enough and maybe the pregnancy has stalled out. I've had anxiety with every pregnancy, but let me tell you, having 3 miscarriages all at different times has really done a number on me. I have to wait until Next Friday to have an ultrasound, and until then, I am in limbo as to how well I am progressing. I am listening to Belleruth Naparstek's guided imagery Healthy Pregnancy. I am trying so hard to be strong and positive. Today has not been a great day for that. I am hoping that my next test gives me the comfort and relief I am looking for.